I will not be held captive by my thoughts but I will take my thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ. 

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." (2 Corinthians 10:3-5)

I think insecurities are just lies from the enemy to keep us from being who we were truly meant to be - who God called us to be. 

"That precious memory triggers another: your honest faith—and what a rich faith it is, handed down from your grandmother Lois to your mother Eunice, and now to you! And the special gift of ministry you received when I laid hands on you and prayed—keep that ablaze! God doesn’t want us to be shy with his gifts, but bold and loving and sensible." (2 Timothy 1:5-7 MSG)

God has recently helped me to see that I don't have to understand to believe, because when I believe, it is then that I understand. 

When I believe that He loves me, I accept it, when I accept it, I experience it, when I experience it, my heart understands and knows unconditional love. 

I also don't have to understand to believe because God truly is working for my good and if He says no to something then I know that it must not be the best thing for me. 

Of course I want to understand why things happen or don't happen but before He tells me why, I can trust His love for me and His perfect timing. 

I wanted to post the following praise report to bring glory to God and encourage others who may be in a similar place. I have dealt with the struggle of people pleasing for the longest time. However, my mind has felt so set free from people pleasing in the last few months. 

God has helped me to think about why I do things and who I am doing them for. All that room in my mind that was wasted on what other people think, or might think, or could think, or what if, or who could be mad at me, or is someone talking about me, what if they misinterpreted what I said, and blah, blah, blah! I really really struggled to let all that go. But when I finally did let it go, God got me to a place where it didn't concern me anymore and all that junk had to leave and now that space gets to be occupied by Him! That's how we were meant to live! :) I am free! 

"Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ." (Galatians 1:10 NIV)